Today can be assumed slightly better than the previous days because the setup has been completed and not much work needs to be done. Besides that, my day working with him also can be considered slightly easier compared with other days. If you wish that he will stop bugging you is the most difficult thing that you hope for it but today can be considered it happens slightly less than usual.
Recently, besides of related to work issues, another new topic is about the vendor that provides onsite support to the bank. He likes to meddle about what they are doing and complain the way they do their work. Sometimes, it’s hard to understand his intentions of pinpointing on people because I thought this kind of attitude only will happen with youngsters but it will also happen to people at his age.
When we were in the bank, he asked me to add the data length into the log so that it can standardize all the logs in the system that has the same information. It’s just only a single line code but I didn’t add into the log because the log contains more than enough to provide the useful information about the network status.
I used to listen whatever he said no matter I understand it or not but during this trip, I started to feel I want to be myself. I started to know how to filter what he said and not blindly accept what he said. During this trip, most of the time, what he told me about the system has been inside my mind and I had reported to him long time ago but sometimes, I will tell myself not to be too harsh with him because he’s too busy to handle so many projects and he can’t remember all the things for all the system although I still dislike his attitude of not putting much effort and concern in this system.
I used to follow and do whatever he ask me to do until this trip that causes me started to think before I follow. I still remember he told me before that he prefers junior because they never fight him back and do whatever he ask. I started to fight back not because I have the sufficient knowledge to control him or trying to show off with my little skill but it’s just I feel IT field is a knowledge sharing field and not a knowledge manipulation. Everyone has their own thinking and different kinds of knowledge. If everyone expresses their opinions and willing to share the different knowledge, the outcome will be much better and every goal can be reached successfully.
Furthermore, his knowledge is more to backend and he still feels frontend knowledge is not that important but at this era, how he can require everyone still using dos-prompt and command line or running scripts. Everytime I solved the frontend problem, I reported to him what are the causes but he just never listen. His facial expression already shows that he’s not interested to know. Actually, I don’t wish to tell as well but I afraid after I handover to him or other colleagues, they will have the difficulty to trace the codes if the same problem happens again in the future. That’s the reason why he said that I didn’t escalate the issue to him just because he shuts off his hearing ability everytime I report to him.
Sometimes, I will let him do the work instead of doing it by myself because I already knew that I won’t understand what he wants. When he’s trying to figure out what causes the failure or needs additional information, I will say ‘I don’t know’ and let him figure it out by himself. It sounds I’m quite bad but I’m too scare to voice out what I know. I scare that once I say something; he will stop me before I finish my words. The possible replies are ‘No’, ‘I don’t think so’, ‘Yes but…’, ‘Are you sure?’, ‘Can you please check….’, ‘How can you verify that?’ and etc.